Empty Words

spoke to my friend,
i could not reach.
i hugged her empty,
i could not reach.
dug deep down i know she did,
inside her, the dream still kills
i kissed her soft and tender,
she looked with tired eyes.
i held her in warm surrender,
she's numb from the inside.

cold her lips are,
shineless her eyes are,
i touch her,i feel nothing
i look at her,she stares past me
she does not believe
she does not feel

underneath the sheets,she built her dreams
dreamt of a home,without a cornerstone
together as one,forever free
underneath the sun,just you and me
all came undone,silence the only home
music never played,for time took her love

as i am
i cannot see
as i am
i cannot reach
for i feel not her pain
i simply feel sorry
for i feel not her loss
i simply feel sorry
as i am
i cannot understand
as i am
i cannot be her friend

she spoke to me,
but i never felt.
she spoke to me,
but i didn't listen.
words dont mean a thing,
when silence is her being.
sympathy never yet made a friend,
empathy yet i do not inderstand.
she is faraway, she is all alone
she is faraway, she is all alone
she is faraway, she can never be home

Footsteps on cobblestone

as i sit for another day
slowly time will take her away
as i sip for another night
slowly the pain will subside
with tears gleaming in the morning sun
and the wind kissing my broken smile
moved away they all just did
making way for the perfect crime

as i walk down the empty street
my heart beats a different beat
amidst strangers i found a home
between time and footsteps on cobblestone

no longer do i need to run
no longer do i have to hide
free myself i can, of whats left inside
search deeper i can, of what remains us

all the stares make no sense
never did i have a winning smile
all the fear makes no sense
never did i have a cruel smile
temples i build within
with light that never dims
love i hold deep within
with time i become it

as i walk down the busy street
my heart beats a different beat
amidst myself i found a home
between silence and footsteps on cobblestone


Hmmm okay i havent been writing for a long time and this poem or whatever might seem stupid.. Dunno what made me write it or visit this blog after such a long time but am happy to be posting again :) Looking forward to comments from the people i know and love from our time in gothic community and other new readers as well..

End Of Beginning

cold black eyes stare me back as a tear rolls down inside never to show what you hold i suffer the not knowing why gray is turning black a void being defined memories beckon again foreshadowing my heart a ghost was i?? to unburden yourself?? just a mean was i?? towards your end?? never knew did i?? just what i meant?? i want to see you cry,, just for me this time.. i want to hear you call,, my name in your final breath.. i want to see you fall,, and try to reach my hand.. i want to know,, if i meant anything at all.. an empty shell were you?? in which i tried to fill my heart.. an eternal darkness were you?? which i tried to turn to light.. damsel in distress were you?? whose knight i tried to be.. what am i? did you never ask yourself?? why am i? did you never wonder why?? who am i? did you understand what i mean?? why should i? i never asked myself..

In The Morning Mist

all alone i wander speaking of gods and angels the burdens we place through our desires only to forget what we desire the most in the morning light she stands alone drenched and shivering placed a hand on her shoulders quivering i beg to be free the water showed her face of tears and fears in one nothing seemed like fate when her loved ones have to die we the forsaken, take the light. empty shadows, pale whispers in the dark. held together , dreams that kill the nights. intertwined forever, by our heart's desire. silent i awaken, to rid myself free. atoned from my sins, i search the skies. gazing at the clouds, i wonder why live. gazing at the water, i wonder what to live for. to be freed of this disease to be held when none cared to be sought when there's nothing left to be loved when there's noone left in the morning light she spoke to me told me of her burden freed me of my sins held my hand and whispered go now love you are me we the forsaken, take the light. empty shadows, pale whispers in the dark. held together , dreams that kill the nights. intertwined forever, by our heart's desire.

uninspired to word my feel heavy eyes set on empty lines lost in something unknown still everytime i try i cant come undone had a heart that sang out loud had a fear that cried out songs had a tear that reasoned her stay now lost inside and left behind with her my words too left again i fall in this empty space the blank sheet speaks my heart perfect words to show my emptiness never again will i write in love for she might steal my words again never again will i fall in love for she might steal my heart again closure i find in these lines i bid farewell to your blank face in this moment i witness the beauty of sunrise and a pen changing a life words come back and i again feel tears come back, i bid final farewell hopes return with the swaying trees i return with the singing winds and again i hope to write in love and again i hope to give my words and again i hope to fall in love and again i hope someone will steal my heart